Reimaged one of my oldest hard drives and found a couple of interesting things I wrote in year 2004 and 2005... I always kept an "inspiration.txt" on my desktop, for inspiration of course. All text quoted from my original files.

1. "to get China united, in other words, to make taiwan back to mainland, we can leverage the geographical support, just move the planks"

[lei] I still think this is our best shot.

2. "the software programmer will be the machines, just like other industry or manufactory, those who programme by hands will be considered as the craftsman, and modern programmer will just scrutiny the process of the software and try to analyze its stability and other standards, just input the parameter and then the machine will calculate and export the programme that we need, or one part of the programme."

[lei] Man, I hated coding and I still do.

The following is coming from a dude who hated the world and thought he was the only one who got it right, it is kind of sad because I know, deep inside, I am still that dude. I couldn't paste the whole article, it made me feel sorry about myself.

In a txt file named "nil.txt",

1. "每个人都有自己的命运，我已经找到了我要做的事情--寻找传说中的真理，它一定存在，它以不同的形势存在于任何事物当中，物理学家，生物学家，数学家，哲学家等等，这些人一直在寻找这个真理，我并没有说他们是错的，只是方法不对而已，实际上有一句话很正确，科学本身就是不完整的"

[lei] And I talked about Kurt Godel to prove my point.

2. "人类社会实际上是一个病态的生态体，他一直如同寄生虫一样依附在大自然中，并对自然做出不可逆转的伤害，人类的欲望使地球的生态越来越糟糕。从整个人类来看，欲望是与生俱来的，肉体的产生就是欲望的产生。"

[lei] I think I read these from some old magazines.

3. "在一辆搭载着全人类的高速火箭上，欲望是它的动力，冷酷是它的特征，没有规则是它的运行轨道。而最可怕的是：人人都想当它的主人，好驾驭着它奔向自己的利益目标。如此的人类发展该是何等恐怖而让人难过的前景。"

[lei] This is a really messed up kid.

Captivity of negativity

I smile, cry inside.

I talk, lie behind.

I stand, fall apart.

I write, defecate better.